I grew up as a missionary kid and always dreamed of becoming a missionary. In spite of health problems that began in high school, I was able to graduate from Southeastern Bible College in 2002.
After college I spent two wonderful years as a missionary in Mexico with New Tribes Mission. I thought my life was “on track.”
Then in 2004 my health completely collapsed. I became bedridden, allergic to literally everything, with chronic fatigue and pain, etc. Over the next several years, I consulted over 40 doctors in eight states. None could help me, and most of them actually made me worse. In 2008 I finally got a diagnosis of Environmental Illness. But there wasn’t much hope offered for recovery.
During those years I experienced all the stages of dealing with chronic illness: denial, frustration, anger, fear, resignation, despair. I never expected so much suffering would happen to me.
Yet through all the painful months, God was faithfully providing for me, teaching me, and working some drastic changes inside me. I learned so much about God’s grace – His kindness I could never deserve – expressed to me in so many ways! Even when my own faith failed, I heard God whisper to my heart “My grace will never fail.”
In 2009 God gave me strength to write Grace In Time Of Need: Encouragement For Those Who Are Suffering. This devotional was a special gift for me as I watched God bring something good out of all my pain.
Also in 2009, God finally led me to some answers for my health. I began to use several different treatment methods including Lymphatic Massage and CBT treatments. Gradually I felt my body beginning to heal.
Praise God that I’m now about 95% recovered and able to live an almost “normal” life. I can once again spend time with family, attend church, go shopping, etc. And I trust that God will restore me to complete health soon.
The last twelve years have been a challenging journey for me, but I am truly thankful for the difficult path God took me on. Through the physical and spiritual brokenness I experienced, God poured out His grace to make me into a new person, more alive and free and in love with Him than ever before!
I rejoice now in every opportunity to reach out to others who are suffering and share with them the hope of God’s unfailing grace.